The topic of sunset at daytime is a befitting conversation for people like myself who wants to sleep until late afternoon. My alternate reality of orange yellowish musky color of sunsent beckons me into a lullaby of peaceful and quiet drift into deep undisturbed sleep.
My favorite poem below…a very common and may be so passe but it still affects and helps me to keep going…the line “rest if you must, but don’t you quit” is apt for what I feel right now.
I wish I can blog my way in to SLEEP…Getting the rest I wanted is getting evasive. My muscles are sore from too much walking. I even had a massage from my boyfriend (I had to beg him to do it) which he rarely does. I’m grateful anyway to him and what I have accomplished yesterday. My mind is rapidly thinking of topics that I can write on this blog. Since, I only had 1 day of blogging so far, I felt that this is what I called BLOG MANIA…I hope I don’t get BLOG APATHY later on…I do not want this to be added to my list of HALF-BAKE activities (just started but never accomplished). This is my short and sweet blog to end my day.
Sayonara everyone until later today!
N.B. Am thinking of keeping my blog posts to a maximum of two a day so as not to overwhelm my brittle mind and body…Oops, I have an assignment today…better get to sleep soon…
“Take the risk. Endure it. Everything follows with an open mind and heart. ” – C-E
The San Leandro Community Library…for students and voracious readers.
MY 2nd FIRST VISITS OF THE DAY: SAN LEANDRO PUBLIC LIBRARY (SLPH) for an intensive study time. I have a whole book that I need to finish at the end of this week. So far, I was able to finish the other half of chapter 7…basically, 800 pages more to go…HUH? This is what I get for PROCRASTINATING…I wish I have superpowers for fast eye coordination and fast long term retention. I found a good spot for studying, with mind you, a very important requirement, charging outlet for my phone and kindle. I have simple joys in life, I am not as critical to things that does not directly relate to my personal issues. I find SLPH a good place to hang out whether as a past time or a more focused learning. 
My study table and view at the library and I can even raise my legs up.
CAFE SORRISO – my first time to visit this place for breakfast. Located in downtown San Leandro. Forgot to ask the server what sorriso means. Pretty quaint, with outlets for laptop and for charging phone, and a personable server. It feels homely. I think they serve breaksfast and some vietnamese food and drinks. My take: I like it because it is unassuming and with great customer service. I usually support mom and pop or local business. Is this what we call micro-economics? (This is a wayward topic) One of these days, I will have to re-enroll myself to micro-economics. I bailed out on my first class on micro-economics. It has some calculations and anything to do with math makes me jittery and nervous so I had to withdraw from the class…
Exercise is one of the core aspect of a healthy lifestyle. Recommendations are 30-60 mins of moderate intensity exercise for 5 days or 150 minutes of exercise in a week (Bickley & Szilagyi, 2017).
Today at 8:17 am, am waiting for my 8:24 busride and this is my view…
These plant palette use to be healthy and I wonder, did somebody forgot to water these plants or just because it is summee time. Weird it might be, commuting by bus, chariot, train (bart or caltrain) does NOT stress me unless I need to be where I needed to be. For me, the only advantage of driving is flexibility in going places. ADVANTAGES of commuting: Less car mileage, no tolls, can read, write (duable but might be a bit challenging) , listen to music with gusto, and sleep. Plus most beneficial of all is being able to exercise by walking or biking.
Frustration…two months ago, I visited DMV to apply for a replacement card for my lost driver’s license. My fault that I did not read the information on mode of payments accepted. ONLY DEBIT, CASH, & CHECK ACCEPTED. NO CREDIT CARDS. This is given and was told by a dmv staff to come back if I got the cash. I went home come back and ask the lady in booth #14 if I can pay for it. She said wait to be seated so I did (with a GRUMPY & MEAN Look). I waited for 30 minutes and have been watching her. I noticed that there are lag times that there no people around her booth. I felt that it is such an inconsiderate and basically, bad customer service.. Now, it is of no surprise that people get BALLISTIC with this kind of service!
My second visit is today. All was running smooth until again I went to the booth # 15 (I saw my favorite staff of booth #14) with a different staff, now a guy. Since, I did not write down by driver’s license # & I did not memorize it because I know that they have me in system. What makes me angry was comments like “you should memorize your driver’s license”, “you should have your passport”. So I am literally in front of him, does it mean I have to go back home and get back my passport? Very inconsiderate, only to find out that he search my name and I have a picture on their system. My point is I lost my wallet including all important cards, why make it difficult for people like myself to establish my identification when they have the technology to identify me through their so called sophisticated Program with my picture on it, and they can always ask my socia and date of birth.
Bottom line is be forewarned that Customer service maybe close to non-existent. Now, am making a copy of all my IDs. For lost ID’s and Driver’s license, bring all identifications (original is better but a copy is a good alternative) to your scheduled appointment for regular replacement card. Bring cash (around 50 just in case, although, I paid only $28), check, or debit card.
A new mandate is to have a REAL ID to fly in the US by 2020″ For the requirements see the DMV website.
I’ll add photo’s later…
“The journey has ended…if the path points to unparalleled doubts, self-conflict, and a voiceless distraught… where the world around you is deaf, mute, and blind” – C-E
To the outside world, they see me as the “cool chick” and not easily affected by what is happening around me. I have no time to be really affected by what the world has to offer because I am so wrapped around my own reality of cyclic on and off switch persona. My off switch, my personal life, is so chaotic. I guess, you could it could be a making of a mini-drama series. I have never formed my own identity. Even in high school, I do not know what I wanted. I grew up in a VERY MATRIARCHAL family. My perception is my mom is always right, so to have no conflict, one must always agree for the sake of family stability. Her voice became my voice. I grappled with what I wanted to be, who am I, and what I really wanted to do with my life. In 1992, I enrolled in nursing because it was supposed to be a pathway to medical school. Frankly, I never imagined myself wearing a white uniform and white caps like Florence Nightingale nor I imagined myself working in nursing or medical field because I felt at that time because I thought I have neither a nurturing or caring attitude flowing through my veins. When one has no idea what road to take, you end in a road that you seem like you are just floating wherever it takes you, so I floated in the nursing profession.
Second year of nursing school, I told my parents that I wanted to switch to a different course. I wanted to transfer to accounting. The reason was quite funny, it’s because I do not like to do bedmaking. I felt that nurses are reduced to making a perfect bed with MITERED corners (which by the way, I haven’t done for seems like eons ago). Fortunately, my mom told me that I should finish what I have started and plus the fact my parents are the one supporting my schooling. In hindsight, I owe it to her that there is one thing that I was able to finish up to the end because after college, I have the habit of just starting and not finishing anything. After graduation, I sporadically applied to different hospitals in my home country. The nursing jobs that I applied for, I usually get it but most of the time, I only stayed in those jobs for about 1-4 months then I quit. The common denominator was I was a perfectionist and I made some mistakes ergo, I felt like I am not for the nursing profession. I lack the passion, or shall I say my passion meter was close to NIL. On the site note, working in World Citi Medical Center has helped me regain my curiosity for nursing and helped shaped my clinical skills. It is befitting to say that the staff at World Citi at that time was eager to teach fresh graduates and devoid of ego-tripping as well as the concept of the “senior vs. junior mentality”.
First job: Makati Medical Center 2nd job: Medical City 3rd job: World Citi Length of service: 1 month Length of service: 4 mos. Length of service: 6 mos.
This is how to do the MITERED corners in bed making
My story, my dilemma, my struggles, and my situation is not unique and could be the same as millions of people in this planet. I am not proficient or well versed with the English language, so if you find any imperfections with my writing, feel free to give me a buzz and I’ll gladly take it. Here I am, writing something that is so personal and I do not know what is my end goal of doing this…thus I am in a very conflicted state and this BLOG is my other form of escape.
I am on a downward spiral and this state is a culmination of my choices, my reaction, my habits, and my personality. I used to be able to handle my DUAL PERSONA. The SWITCH that I have become accustomed to is now creating huge cracks on my well constructed life. On the outset including work and friends, my ON- switch, I am a person who projects the nice girl aura, optimistic, easy to get a long with, accommodating, and enjoys to problem solve. On the inset, my personal life, my OFF-switch, my laundry is piling up, my house is in total disarray, my backyard has grown weeds, and I can sleep or read my romance novel, one book after another on days end. My laziness and my reading has become my escape to what confronts me with the “REALITIES OF MY LIFE”.
Preciouse-Books is one source of my escape..where I can read my Tagalog e-book romance novels.
A browse or a click on my page means a whole lot to me…Thank you for your interest!
Sometimes what you see is just the wrappings, it’s the inside that unravels the journey and the destination – C-E
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